the present: is here for my enjoyment and conscious participation and creative expression.
the future: will be amazing, I know, but back to the present...
today, my body feels comfortable and peaceful - what a blessing... to wake up comfortable, confident, and at ease in one's body. what a pleasure to walk into a room and find hot waters waiting to wash over that strong, vibrant, healthy body... a room full of flowers and books and incense?... my favorite music at my disposal, my husband and closest friends only a phone call away... my blue blouse laid out for me to wear... the library, no more than a mile's walk away... a beautiful walk to be enjoyed by me and my young, healthy body...
of course, life has come with it's share of contrasts but they have been beautiful, strengthening experiences (people, places, events, circumstances) that have helped me choose Higher... that have sent me gladly and sometimes running back to Spirit.
I have been blessed with all types of amazing relationships and now I enjoy the beauty and benefits of a sound marriage to a beautiful Muslim man.. I've come a long way (by faith and sometimes without)... and I am finally allowing myself (really allowing myself) to release with love and gratitude those things which were... and it is such an amazing process... such a burden has been released from my gut and shoulders and back... weight has been dropped, judgments and accusations and grudges have been released and now, I use everyday, and every moment to become more self-aware... to become better.
as I observe and participate at times in my husband's Deen (way of life) my values are transformed for the better and I feel my purpose being activated... a life of loving, joyful service to Spirit, to family, and to community - through teaching, sharing, encouraging, presence, participation, gardening, building, and being an example of living the Will of Spirit.. the Will of God...
finally, I accepted that perhaps much of what I was taught was not the complete or absolute truth and so, I am free (because I say so) to not only release much of it... but to forgive everything and everyone along the way... Forgiveness is a way of life.. it is the ultimate Allowing of all others to be themselves - whoever that might be in the moment... Forgiveness is the ultimate freedom... not concerning oneself with what other people are or are not doing -but going about self-educating by un-learning and re-learning...
I am committed to Life.. to God. I am committed to keep on getting back up, no matter how many times I fall down. I am committed to choosing forgiveness as a means of choosing abundant life... Please visit me at http://ahbrakedahbra.wordpress.com/ and see exactly what I've been working on and thinking about!
From my heart to yours, self-amplifying love all-ways,
-.ayo.
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