eternal dance of fortune ..

i woke up this morning and could tell this would be a great day. i hopped on facebook... changed my twitter status.. and began a new post for my blog.. all in good spirits.. and then this Aquarius came along and asked: Hey.. don't get mad.. but you're into girls too right? Well.. I know this girl who wants to have sex with a girl.. Well, she's actually my ex.. and she actually wants to have a threesome.."

my response: The answer is no. But we can talk anytime about womanism, sexuality and spiritual intimacy.

he replied: You have to ask to find the answer.

True.

have you ever been in love? if you have.. you won't have to wonder or guess.. you already know and all those delicious feelings will begin to flood your heart.. their smile will flicker in your memory.. you'll recall something you did together once / somewhere you both went... and you will keep going unless you then remember... "oh, but.. we're not together anymore.." and if you think that thought then you are likely to recall the reason that you are no longer together.. maybe it was something they did or worse something you did that was just SO terrible.. you couldn't possibly move past it to continue to grow with the person you love... so, now.. someone has to learn how to "let go" how to "forgive" and how to be "self-sufficient" and "self-defined.." and you have to love yourself, stay balanced and active and positive... relationships are the greatest teachers.. because the greatest teachers are the ones you are most intimate with. <3

know this: we live our lives through the mind.. our minds make perception possible which is necessary for us to experience Life. (therefore to experience life requires you to be sensual! yes!!!) since we live our lives through our minds those memories that we recall with intensity are times when we were more emotionally and mentally present... and these are the things that have had the greatest influence on us.. and every time you recall these experiences.. you return to them.. you do not have to live something physically to experience it... and every relationship you have ever had.. is eternal (i believe that we enter into spiritual contracts before we enter worlds to lead lives - more on that later, though). and every memory you have.. can be re-written for your personal records.. that means- you can choose what memories to emphasize and what memories to fade (by ignoring them.. be careful though to take the pearl/lesson first and leave the shell/actual experience or it will wash up on your shore again).. the memories that burn the brightest in the mind will be the ones we revisit most often.. and as you recall the things you enjoyed .. you place those things on your path before you.. creating a more pleasing reality for yourself.. this time without all the ill-shit you didn't like.. this is more likely to happen if you actually learn the lesson that the ill-shit was trying to teach.. be brave & learn.. even if it is something you do not want to learn.. you must.. lest you continue to live a life of horrid patterns & cycles.

so.. experiences and relationships never end since their is not such thing as an end within the circle of Life..

"break-ups" do not mean separation since their is no such thing as separation on a plane where everything is one... and the most a person can do is delude you into thinking you are restricted from touching them physically.. but if you understand vibration and the improbability of touch then you understand that if you are sensitive enough then you can still feel them.. (all is one)... you can still remember their 'touch'.. their scent.. you can still remember their voice.. you can still remember the fun times (and as you remember you attract more of that to you!).. you can still feel for them.. you can still think about conversations you had.. and as long as you can still sense them mentally.. you are still connected to them.. the goal is to become comfortable with perceived distance or to understand that there is no distance and no separation at all... when everything is ONE... this is closer to truth.

remember that everything is a teacher.. when people tell you about yourself take what they give and use what you can.. leave the rest for the critters and know that everything you see in others (even those things that you do not like).. are qualities that are likely buried somewhere within you.. since everything you see here is actually your subconscious mind.. try to see how everything is connected and you will become fearless because when all is one.. there is nothing to fear. <3